I was listening to the revolutionary song from the movie 3Idiots – Give me some sunshine, give me some rain, give me another chance, I wanna grow up once again. I am saying it as revolutionary because it has jolted many of us (or may be all of us) and forced us to go in to flashbacks to rethink over our life. I too went into the flashback.
It all started in the year 2004, I cleared my SSC and was exposed to a bigger world, which I wanted to be part of in my school days; my foggy memories can still draw some pictures of that time when I use to say that moustache looks great on a man’s face. First day at the hostel, a small introduction session with the seniors and I got first real lesson of my life “Never open your mouth before thinking”. I still am trying to execute this learning, but fail anyway, eventually the fear of seniors gave me a new look. From that day onward I am a moustache-less person, but I am good looking, at least I presume it. I look back and find that it has been 6 years from start of a voyage that would decide three-fourth of my life. What I thought would be a nice pavement and a decent commence, felt like being a lumber. With the un-demanded expectations and no solid dreams the four years seemed to be of very less use. What I wanted I did, but with no real bliss. At the end of the first stage, I was a certified entity that was eligible to earn at least minimum breads. But need of the hour was not to earn riches but to gain knowledge.
I believe that flashbacks are real friend to you when you face your life on the other side of the battle field. Well this may be a controversial statement because your life is never your enemy, but this is a point of view that is carried by an individual who loves living. Flashbacks give you the weak links of your so termed “enemy” - the life. What went wrong, what can be rectified, these are some of the questions that can be answered only by your life, no one else can answer them.
Anyway, the new moustache-less look brought about many new things to me such as sense of being liberated, sense of understanding what maturity is, sense that I am a social animal, sense that my life is dependent on various factors other than just water, food, clothes and shelter. (I think the term evolution is appropriate) Okay, so my evolution took place. After getting evolved, main task ahead was to get an establishment in the main stream, for that the earning-eligible entity was supposed to be polished because mere earning eligibilities do not make you outstanding; sorry the better word is noticeable. Two more years and we are in the present dates. These last two years went as per the plans, and the plan was planned in a manner that will benefit those coming three-fourth years of my life. But the planning seemed to be flawed because results are not what I wanted.
A common question asked in several job interviews – “where do you see yourself after 5 years from now”. I fail to answer this to myself although I know where I want to be after 5 years from now. You see there is a difference between what you want and what reality is. I think answering this is pointless because I learned something that planning and failing results in more disappointment than not planning and then failing. The thing is I don’t want to see myself anywhere after 5 years from now. Why should I do that? Is it just that because this question answers one’s aim in life? What if the aim is not to make any aim in life?
I am not content of what I got and what I will have but I am happy of what I have earned and what I will gain. So give me loads of sunshine with sun-screen lotion, give me loads of rains with an umbrella, I already had my chances, I might not have them again.